So summer has gone by without an update. So here's a quick update.
June- reassessed my life, jumped into the Full Sail pool after a tour. Gave my two weeks and watched the sands of time slip away. enjoyed every last minute of being in Jacksonville.
July- moved to Winter Park, FL. Got used to life as a bachelor. Forgot things that hurt and opened new wounds. Did some things I couldn't do in Jacksonville. When you're alone and stressed, you do some things you wish you didn't. Didn't perform until I got my place and new life straightened out. Missed performing. especially with pasalamat. Made new friends.
August - new roommate. excited at first, but soon grew to resentment. still cool though. started performing again. Met new people. Met new interest, floating feelings returned. We get along good (i hope). Keeping cards close to the chest until I feel her slipping away from me, then will lay the hand down, hoping she'll fold.
September - decided to renew ways. plenty of time to think. started questioning my decision to move to Winter Park. Missed home much. 2/4 weekends spent in Arlington. Roommate is going back to Cali. Going to miss him actually, despite our differences and my annoyance. Made fantasy football team - taking my time up.
So that's that. But I would like to explain life on my own.
It's lonely at times, but I'm a lonely person, so it works. I've been keeping my mind occupied with class, church, comic books and House. I didn't realize how much I miss life at home with the family. I'm missing things. I barely recognize my house! My dad did so much renovations to the place that it all looks different. My dog still recognizes me. But I soon fear he will forget me lol. I never thought I'd miss the nagging of my parents, and homemade cooking. My sister has changed as well for the better, while I have changed for the worst. I'm missing what's going on in Arlington. My friends are doing good things and new people are moving in and maybe replacing me.
But here, I am a new man. Not so new as people knew of me from before. I tried to change my persona into a cool, quiet confident person. But my shining personality prevailed and I'm the loud, joker. I'm closer to the Guingabs than I ever was. They have helped me adapt to life here in Orlando so much. So glad to have them again. Met new people here. I'm starting to feel things for a girl here. She's awesome. The best personality I have ever interacted with. She's cute and joyful and receptive to my attempts at humor. It's everything I have ever wanted. I've actually started praying for this to work someday. Don't know where it will go. God's will. But I won't run if it doesn't work. I still have work to do down here. The quicker it gets done, the quicker I can leave.
I'm slowly starting to fit in.